Again, it took me forever before posting a new entry. Its not like I’m expecting anyone to read this though. I just feel left out because a lot of people seem to be so comfortable in moving on. A lot of things have changed unfortunately, more things didn’t and they stayed as they were. I feel like I’m back to square one from nowhere but somehow I know the next step I will be taking will be a major move that will change basically everything in my life.
Yes, I’m still with boyfee, he isn’t as self centered as he was before. But then again maybe I didn’t understand him then. Hopefully, he will be my future and whatever we have right now will stay as it is. Besides, after 5 years my family has met him and so far, he’s been doing a great job at dodging them. :0)
Plans on getting married? Well anyone in a 5-year relationship ought to have discussed about that and yes, we did. We’ve been talking about it though his confidence that I will say “yes” is plain frustrating and funny at the same time. He says we are getting married in 2013 and his family knows about it already. As for me, I believe they are all just plans that may change in a flick of a finger.
My social circle has been so much smaller because I realized how tiring it is to hang on into a bus that’s going nowhere… fast. Yes I do miss them, I miss that they didn’t complicate things, I miss that they were easy to handle, I miss that they had issues but they took the proper route to fix them and I miss that they love the group enough not to do things that will ruin it. I doubt that they still read this but I do wish that whatever they exchanged with what we had is worth it. That they are happy now.
I’ve been reuniting with some old friends though and it really is great going down the memory lane with them. it was fun but it made me remember why they are “old” friends and why I needed to “reunite” with them. Some things changed now that we have grown up but there are things that growing up will not change.
25 is a transition stage. This is when most of my batchmates start “making babies.” Most of my batchmates who had their first babies from 23 below obviously didn’t have the intentions of making one during that time. They’re just “accidents.” A lot of them are getting settled with their new families and I guess I want the same thing right now.
I can see the change in my family. In spite of the fact that we all live different lives now, we are still together. We are still living in the same house. We still grace the dining table together at least twice a week and in a few months my first niece will be joining us hopefully she will repair any damaged goods between everyone. ..
O and before ending this, I’m proud to say that I have quit smoking for over a year now. I can confidently say to my mom that “No, I wasn’t smoking”
