Its been two months since I last posted an entry here. It’s quite shocking what 2 months of failure to visit your own blog can do. My Alexa ranking plummeted from 3.2 to 5.4… I didn’t really give a rat’s ass about rankings but I’m supposedly doing SEO shit for some time, I’m supposed to be in ways concerned with web rankings.
Anyway, what drove me to write again is the fact that a new year came in and I have to motivate myself in doing something different this year, and for me to be able to feel motivated I have to post it here like it’s some kind of a written contract.
2009 have been shitty, everyone says so. Like totally everyone I know. And if we were to make a collage of the events of 2009, I think its going to be a ball of an even bigger shit. Important people died, astounding calamities occurred, evil people became victorious and Philippines is still in deepfried shit. Notice how many times I’ve said shit for the past few paragraphs. Everyone says they want a change this year and hopefully people would get the change that they want -whether it’s personal, financial, spiritaul or whatever… I’m not expecting much with political change but I’m sure it’s bound to be entertaining to watch news this year.
I on the other hand is not really aiming to change, as I’ve said I just want things to be different than how they were 2009. I want to feel better about myself this time around, I really really need to travel and I miss the old people in my life.
Just like everyone else who gained Holiday weight, I vow to lose them – them including vacation weight, birthday weight, emotional – eating induced weight and damay-damay sa kainan weight… Yeah I know that’s a lot of weight… It does not matter how much I lose but I swear to God I’m going to lose weight or at least I’ll die trying. That’s my answer to the “I want to feel better about myself” part.
As for travel, it looks like my travel companions have abandoned ship so it’s time I plan my next few voyages on my own. Good thing the BF had been planning to go the same direction as me — BKK. I’ve always wanted to go there especially during my hippie days. Which sort of explains my addiction to cows. (well long story). BF had been planning to go to Bangkok since last year because of this small business he wanted to strart. And since I have completely convinced myself to do it, it looks like we are giving the plan a go signal come first week of March. Kind of exciting since I’ve never been out of the country with the BF. Hopefully, by the next few months, the Angels will finally agree to go to Cam Sur. And by agree, it involves actually saving up for the trip and booking the tickets and doing advanced works and filing VLs or whatever else they need to do. The past few months, we’ve all talked about get togethers and out of towns but we never really got anywhere. Not even for a bottle of beer or two in a videoke joint. I wish we aren’t tired of each other yet, I know I’m not.
As for missing old people. I’ve been looking at photos from the old Multiply circa and I’ve seen a lot of faces and names that I miss. I saw a hell lot of happy moments and somehow I can’t seem to understand why we can’t redo those things all over. I heard about the phrase they call “growing up and moving on” but does moving always have to involve leaving people behind? I’m moving on to 2010 and leaving behind 2009, and I hate 2009 and I’m raising my middle finger at it. Does it have to be the same way with the old people? Wherever they are right now, I want them to know that they are all very important to me and I wish they are all safe and happy and prosperous. I’ll be seeing you all soon.
